It has been years and we’ve gone through so much to get to where we are now. What we have has, therefore, become that one constant in my life. One of the things in my life that I don’t have to try so hard at. It just works, naturally. You’ve never given me any reason to worry. Even if weeks go by before we see each other again, we just pick up from where we left off. 

But now, I just have so much on my mind. You told me things that I only USED to imagine I’d hear from you. After all the progress we’ve made, you brought me back. You’ve got my head in a spin because things have generally stayed the same between us, despite the fact that after that night, things HAVE changed.

I’ve heard before that “you just know”. I was always so skeptical. I still am. But, it’s true after all. In that moment, I felt something. The feeling is definitely there. 

Within the past year, I’ve had a lot of disappointment. A couple times, I thought there was the promise of something, and in the end, nothing. I’m just so tired of being let down. So, while things haven’t changed drastically between us, I ask you… everything that was said, I hope you meant it. But from here on out please don’t say it unless you mean it. I’m tired of getting my hopes up for nothing. I’m tired of falling, only to have to pick myself up again. 

And because it’s you, it may be harder to get up this time around…

*FYI: it may sound like it’s about you (you know who you are), but it’s not. i’m soooo over that. :)

(Source: free-your-mind, via betterneverchange)